I was frightened sia. While I was sayang-sayanging my new born cousin(Alisha), she cried oh so suddenly. And that's when I found out that I need to turn her around coz she's not comfortable. Well, Alisha's a new edition to the family, to the 32 cucus(yes, my grandma counted). Come to think of it, it's amazing how my grandma could manage to raise up 15 children. It's amazing how she could read and write and everythinggg even though she couldn't afford to attend school(we are really lucky). Once lived in squatters, now she had met the president, the late Dr Wee Kim Wee, travelled to Saudi, Cairo, Australia, Hawaii, all the places she didn't even imagine she would go back then. Her will power and her faith in God made her tough journey an ease and it was a very, very meaningful, inspiring one, for herself and for people like me who would write about it in their blogs, ahha.

"Were you worried that you can't afford to pay all your children needs?"

"I'm not worried because God will be there to help me"

Coolness. Man, that kept me thinking and thinking. If anyone in this world who was suppose to be worried, it would be her, not the parents who's worried that their child could not score, not Microsoft who's worried about bidding to own Yahoo.com(yes, i do read up), not KFC who's worried that by practicing proper animal care, they would lose $$$.

I did understand what she was saying... but I couldn't come up with the write words to explain it. (Religion is a really delicate and abstract subject man) Finally, I found the words(from my Physics Sensei) that would link it all: If you do not fear God, He will make you fear of everything else. But if you do fear Him, He will make everything else fear of you. That resulted on my gradma's strong will power, to do whatever it takes to support the family. Thus, never underestimate your own, and God's power mannnn

After learning that some of us had lost our grandparents(i'm sorry), it only made me appreciate all of my grandparents more. Thus, my grandma. Coz I believe that as a grandchild, it's not easy to lose someone who had dearly loved you since you were born.

I'll be a grandfather one day(lollll, toooo far ahead already), and I would want my grandchildren to be the best they can be. Thus, I'll make my family proud(maternal and paternal,at least my grandma) by doing well in MYEs. If not MYEs, Prelims. If not prelims, O Levels(I believe that God's gonna help me achieve this, even if it's late till O lvls, Meski tertimbun dalam tanah, teras timbul juga). Well, anything in life basically, before it's too late.

So much for the long emo post. I've to study for ENGLISH, hahahahahha. And so on and so forth. Therefore, early mornings for meee. Well, I dare not say I'm on hiatus, coz who knows I'll pop up to tell you how 'exciting' the paper was, ahahha. But yea, hiatus reminds me of Sudoku, I dont know why

Finally, good luck everybody :D Ahhhhhh We are family

It's gonna be a freakingg long weeekk