Life's unexpected, really. It can go so high up to the sky, but nahh, it could go down to the ground anytime if it feels like it. Fate, Karma, Luck. The few elements of Life. Life life life.


So yea, Fate was the limelight of today. I received a call from my mother and cousins that my elder cousin, Shahid, is suffering from cancer, due to a growth in his heart. It was sudden, yes, Life's unexpected. I was in the bus, and fear and sadness overshadowed the surrounding. I didn't care about the trees outside, the people coming in and out of the bus, the aunties who talked really loudly behind, the songs i'm listening to, the bio spa tommorow and loads of tests that's coming. And yea, the world seems more real, not a hallucination as before.


Fear, fear to live. Sad, sad to leave. Shahid's a friendly cousin who visit our nenek and us oftenly with his family. And yea, he's physically inclined. International rock climbing competitions, he did join. Yea, he was a good and happy sportsman. But not for today, till the doctor broke the news of his sickness. My family went to visit him, without me. Sharkss, i'm such a foolish for being too engrossed of what this world or, to be specific. country has to offer, studies, worrying about our "oh so bright" future if we studied hard bla bla bla, worrying if we could get in the jc/poly we desire, and those qwerky propaganda thingys. It's over-exagerated, a simple one would be great.

I couldn't make it as there's a thing called tuition. Yeap, how important. We studied at the voideck coz my house was locked. Why? coz my whole family was at the hospital. What I've Done


Good cousin, he is. Well, whenever there's a family gathering, he'll join me with the other cousins to catch up on things or simply just to talk. And yea, the better times was when we bring along our guitars to rumah nenek just to get a break and play our hearts out. Yeaaa, he has this brotherly love, that we could really look up to, for the younger cousins . He is a great person.


I can't express myself well when it comes to this coz I thought things will go well for everyone as time passes. But yea, I'll too lie on that bed one day. So yea, all I can do is to send him a well-wishing testimonial in friendster and pray for his well-being.


Shahid most probably's not reading this, but yea, i'll use every possible medium there is to dedicate to him:


Shahid's rose


More than a brother,
Similiar to physic, similiar to blood,
So much to say, dear Brother,
Starting with, you have a good heart.


Life's like a rose,
With petal soft, and lovely scent.
But somethings' beneath that fragrant rose,
The thorns, the poison, you can't defend.


Just hold on, hold on there please
I'll take away those sharp thorns,
Share the poison to bring you to ease,
And by time, soon, they are gone.


So, do not fear to live,
Life's not exempt from pain
So pick a rose, you may get hurt,
Everyone's here, to share your best words.