Oh shoot, I just tear. Not a tear, exactly, more to sobbing. Facing the computer, doing research, listening to Doas from my PSP and there was a sudden reflection crossing my head.


Yea, O Levels Oral's this thursday and I need God's help to do well. I didn't know what I was sobbing about until then. I was praying, pleeding for His help and knowing all the sins I did, I thought to myself, I don't deserve His help. But knowing that He, the Most Compassionate, had always been there for me, being behind each and every step and success of my life, despite all my sins and the times I don't even bother remembering Him, really touched me deeply. The Doas' I'm listening now really project much deeper meaning eventhough I've yet to understand Arab. And there'll be this time somewhere after the O Levels, or results, I'll be forgetting Him and that pretty sadden me about myself.


Mr.Casey Mui, our DM, is trasferring to Northlight School. He had been a great DM, and despite being transfered, he'll be visiting us to and fro. Yes, we can't afford to lose him, but that how life's goes. And one of our classmates, one of 3Ians living for India, not being able to be with us throughout these 2 years. Reality strikes again, I can't afford to lose a friend. Well, although not spoken by word or not being able or too busy to even talk, knowing that friends are still present around is a great feeling. Man oh man.


And that sums up my sobbing. What a day today was.

Knowing that He is around, Life worth the living afterall.