Random: People sleeping right. Seriously, I don't know this guy. Took his pic for fun, peace(?) and joy.

Basically, my life had been tonggang-langgang, porak-peranda, tonggang-terbalik, upside down and all words that are related to those.

Firstly, I didn't touch my A Maths for weeks. And my A Maths teacher trusted me all this while. He didn't pick on me coz he knew that I will do my work and he's my CCA teacher. So, I'm considered lucky to be one of his loved ones. I've seen him treating those that he put more attention to. And it's, bad. He picks on those people who did badly for tests. Maybe, I'm one of them. I'm one of those average low marks people. I have to niche the latest test which will be next week. I don't want to lose his trust and I don't want him to trust me just because I'm in the CCA that he's in charge of. In competitions, he will be by the bench, giving applauses and words of wisdom. If he's there, you'll guarentee be touched and inspired. Trust is one of my most prized possesion. Right now, I have kept trusts and received them from a number of people, hoping not to lose it.

Really, if i do badly again, I'm doomed. He will be eying my every move. If worst come to worst, I would have to drop it. It's my worst nightmare. It's like throwing a quarter of my potential of having a good job down the drain, because I didn't work hard for lame tests. And it's my fault. My A Maths just suck, at least it's so far my worst subject. And I got one of my "idol" teacher teaching me that. How Great. Maybe, I should show him that I'm worthy off and on the court, off and on the examination room. Quit my procastination attitude. Set my aim, be sure of my azam, and OWN A MATHS. I make it sounds too easy. Okay, let's start by opening the book.

This coming tuesday will be The Debate Day. Yea, I have to lift up 3I's name and dominate this debate. Being the Team Captain of the class, and representing the class to glory, how pressurizing can it get? The qualifiers was sucky. I have to improve on talking interactively much much more. And I didn't made any effort to research on stuffs yet. Well, after being the most cannot-make-it debater among us 3, i can't possibly be more canno-make-it. I have to prove them wrong, maybe clinche the Best Speaker Award. That means I have to compete with the best speaker from both the opposing team and my own team. Yea, it's a tough feat. Maybe I should wear Adidas shades on that day, Impossible is Nothing.

About Team Captain, day by day, I keep telling myself that I'm not worthy of a Team Captain, a Student Leader. I'm the most corrupted in my class, besides being one of the few malay, who stereotypers think its bad, damn them. I often tuck out my shirt unintentionally and extreme hairstyles. I'm not an ordinary 3I student. I can't possibly be the Team Captain. It potrays the class. And my class is supossedly to be a "nerd" class as it's a triple science class. urghh. stereotyping is no good. And being the Team Captain should potray a good image of the class. And I should be topping the class, which means topping the level. Besides being a jerk who can't be bothered to study. I used the J word. That's how bad.

Ah.. anyways, I don't know if I will be coming to Perth for the geography trip. I can use that 8 days to catch up on my loss-on-track studies. It's like I have to leave for Perth 5 days after come back from the 5 days sec 3 camp which is at Taman Negara, Malaysia. How Tiring. But Perth's cool yo. I'll get to see extravagant sceneries, plateues, mountains, water falls, rivers, seas, grass lands, and even extreme Racists. I'm dark, or some of you may call it, black.

Malays are like negros of Singapore. Seriously. We can sing(singapore idol), dance, those entertainment stuffs, and I'm proud of that. But it's harder for us to get a place in the society. Yea, you will never get to see a Malay prime minister, president (other than Yusof Ishak) in the future. Maybe, it will, but it will be a White Malay. I'm planning to change that. Don't worry I won't be a Hitler. See how many documentaries showing corrupted Malays? Cmon boost up our morale.What happen to heroic classic stories? Peribahasa? And other races are looking down on us. And that's why most want to enrol their children into a single-raced school coz they "fear" Malays.

It's like we own Singapore before Raffles came, and we let others to settle here and criticise and disrespect us? And where is the Malay Power people? I'm not a racist, but I have to be proud of my race, culture coz they are part of me or its the other way round, I'm part of Malay. As you can see, I'm not criticising other races, but just cricising mine. Maybe I just don't care about other races, and think whats best for mine. That's how desperate I am to boost us, the Malays, up. Cmon people, don't hide, we can do it! Maybe some may think we are short-term-goaled people who hang around voidecks, play soccer, strum the guitar, simply carefree, but we will see who live longer! ok, not until like that, but it's just that we were from kampongs, and money is not an issue to us. We live humble lifes, unlike those high, arrogant lifes. All we need is to be prepared for the aftermath eventhough if we should suffer being the low-class people on earth. But eh, I'm sick of being low-classed.

Anyways, going to Australia at this age is a golden, or even priceless opportunity. People who are in their middle ages will die to go to Perth. Some that is. And we have a choice of going. If we choose not, then we will be a Sore Pathetic Loser. I used that SPL word, thats how bad. Even though we have to pay $1000+ for this trip, don't let it be an obsticle preventing you from going. If you have a right set of moral values, you will know that money isn't everything. There are plenty of help out there for us to help us achieving that high stake of money. All we have to do is find those.

I'm righting this coz sometimes, I feel bad going elsewhere without my friends who would be here with me but didn't because of this problem. Even History students dying for this trip. And we, Geography students, are too spoilt, of choices. Yea, let's go to Perth together as a geography batchmates no matter what!

btw, for your info, i'd have a second blog, http://OhZaki.blogspot.com

Okay, some arrogant people may read this post and say, "Malays..... cannot even type proper english. Such typical Malays.." with that arrogant face. Urghh.. Omg, does those type of people still roaming this uneven earth?

If I continue writing this sort of post, I'm confident that I'll be sued. So now, Money or Malay?